I guess I’ve been having a really hard time lately.
I’ve battled anxiety and depression for year, but lately, I don’t know…. it’s just really got to me.
I work really, really hard every day. I’ve always been the creative type, so ever since I graduated college, I needed some extra cash (since jobs are hard to come by around here). I started making my own jewelry and hair accessories to sell on etsy (an online marketplace for handmade, vintage, and supplies), thinking that would be the perfect way to do it. People all over the world could see my stuff and hopefully buy it so I can save up. Unfortunately, that hasn’t been the case.
In over four months, I’ve only had about 4 sales. I think I’ve made maybe… twenty to thirty dollars, but with all of the supplies and stuff I’ve had to pay, there hasn’t been much profit. I would take this as just getting started and it’ll get better if I didn’t have a friend who also has an etsy store and hers is booming. Her jewelry is selling really well and she has orders all the time.
Sometimes, I wonder what I’m doing wrong. There are times when I just want to be better at something. I don’t want to feel dejected every time I log onto my etsy profile to find out nothing has sold… the things I thought would sell so well haven’t moved… and that does things to my own confidence. It makes me feel like I’m just not good enough and that my stuff looks cheap and horrible. Then, the negative thoughts in my head go on and on about how nobody likes my jewelry or accessories. They look at it and hate it. Those are the thoughts I deal with on a daily basis. It upsets me because I just want to make people proud of me. I hate being the ‘unemployed’ one of the family… the one who has to be taken care of because I can’t pay my own bills right now. I want them to be like “oh, yeah, she makes awesome jewelry and has this great business.”
I guess I just get really frustrated because people say that they like my stuff, but I never get any sales these days.